adam

if you didnt already know, adam’s my boyfriend. or husband. or wife. or something like that. at least i hope so.

i met adam about a year ago on habbo. oh yeah. but i didnt really. he just gave his myspace out like the scene fag he is(nt) and i added him. mainly because he had a picture up of him drinking carling and i wanted to tell him how much it was like piss and how silly he was for drinking it.

though, when i got talking to him i learnt that he actually likes carlsberg. which is alright. so he was accepted also because he was funny and nice and oh just too cool for me. after a little while of not talking really (sorry) we got talking on the phone one night with his amazing free calls and kinda learnt that we liked each other. well it was that for me, im just guessing. but for a good while i was just like nah, i’d never stand a hope in hell y’know.

but then as the months (yes, months!) passed, the ‘i’d ask you out if you lived near me’ started, though no matter how much i hinted that it’d be alright where we were he never seemed to get the idea. one step, though, was a night he came home really quite drunk, declared to me: ‘i ducking love yo’, and threw up on his floor. nice. actually i think he threw up just as i was telling him i ‘ducking’ loved him too, which of course i took really well…

anyway, a couple MORE months down the line, loads of weekends of phonecalls, including one (just over) complete weekend! yes, 50 hours on the phone, died afterwards, he finally asked me out! in the early hours (about 00:34) on Saturday Dec 16th. it didnt get off to too much of a great start, but has gone well really, apart from a load more fuck ups by me. i’m honestly so sorry. i really never stop thinking, these days, nearly as much as i think about adam himself (all the time), about how i messed the relationship up and upset him. which really isnt nice, because he does mean the world to me.

also, just over a month ago he came to see me, which was great and he will be again in about 5 weeks or so, if i can manage to keep him that long. he says he’ll only dump me if i cheat on him again but i’m not so sure. every day now it feels like he’s going to at some point, and even though i know he’s got problems trusting me and things it’s still really hard, and gets to me a lot because he really does mean the world to me. which he often doesn’t believe either, when he really needs to.

adam likes: INDIE things, haha , garlic sauce! (eugh), his music, um.. i dont know if he likes drinking but he seems to do it quite a bit! and me a bit hopefully. not do me btw. well, maybe.

adam’s scared of: spiders, heights, any insects really, and probably me

anyway, i’ll leave this as it is. hope it wasnt overly soppy, haha.